A Mother’s Love

This year, Mother’s Day is weighing heavily on my mind and in my heart. There is so much to say but it’s not my intention to make this a dismal or over-emotional post. Yet what I had to say kept invading my thoughts, pestering me until I finally wrote it all down in words. 

MY FRIEND. I would first like to dedicate this post to a dear friend of mine whose mother passed away just a few days ago.  To have this happen just before Mother’s Day must be heart wrenching. As my friend recounted the story of what happened, I desperately held my tears back in an attempt to remain strong for her. I didn’t need to be the one between the two of us to break down. And then I thought, why am I even crying right now? Yes, I met my friend’s mother on several occasions but I never really spoke with her. Then I understood that it was my sadness for my friend and what she must be going through that prompted those unwanted tears. She was hurting and so therefore, I was too. With love and support from her friends and family, including her own son, this Mother’s Day will be not be spent in sadness, but in gratitude for what she had and continues to have.

MY MOTHER. For the last few days, I have been reflecting on what it means that my mother is still with us in this world. Or is she? Is she simply an empty vessel in a nursing home bed, lost to whatever it is that has replaced her consciousness as a result of this ugly disease called Alzheimer’s? Or is she still somewhere in there, holding on to memories of the good times we shared with her, not wanting to let go because that’s all she has in her life now? I miss my mother terribly and I wish I could have just one day when she is lucid because I want to tell her so badly about Dan and Roxie and to tell her about my writing and my students. I know in my heart she would be so pleased and so proud. I just want to share with her again. 

MYSELF. Lastly,  I think about my own flirtations with motherhood each time I embrace my puppy Roxie. Each time we lock eyes and I seem to be the center of her world makes me feel just a little like what I think a mother must feel with her own offspring.  I am in no way implying that caring for a dog is the same as caring for human life. But having and loving Roxie put a sort of selfless love in my heart that makes me feel like I am a better human being because of it. I call her my little baby and I truly feel like she is. She needs my protection, my nurturing and my love and I am so happy to be the one to provide all of that for her.

I would like to end this post with a loving recognition to those who have lost their mothers and those who never knew their mothers. I would especially like to acknowledge all mothers, not discounting stepmothers, childless mothers, mother figures, and mothers of fur babies. They truly deserve recognition on a daily basis. Life would never be complete without these people in our lives.  💖

Published by Cathy Marie

Cathy has published her poetry with The National Library of Poetry, and has won awards for her short stories. She is currently working on a novel where she uses her own personal experience with depression to develop the inner conflict for her main character, a high-powered magazine executive who has trouble sustaining relationships due to family trauma and chronic depression.

8 thoughts on “A Mother’s Love

  1. Dismal, yes but only because it makes us realize what we no longer have. Beautiful because it makes us realize what we are blessed to have experienced with having her as out mom. Thanks for this post, sis.

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  2. Thank you so much. You have no idea how much this post means to mean. Thank you so much from writing from your heart.❤️❤️

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  3. This post is everything Cousin!! I miss my Tati so much!! She’s so strong and I pray for her and I pray for my cousins that have to go through this!

    When you lose a parent you understand another persons pain too well and it hurts because you’re never the same.

    I’m so happy you have Roxie. I’ve seen you in action with her and you’re amazing!! Happy Mother’s Day Love!!

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    1. Cousin!!! Your message means everything to me!!! ♥️♥️ Thank You so much cousin!
      And my mother’s condition is something that the whole family—aunts, uncles, and cousins— are going through together.
      Again, thank you! I hope you had a fantastic Mother’s Day! 😘😘

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  4. Welcome Cousin! You’re right! We are all going through it and I should have specified that because I meant it in the aspect of child and parent. We’re all hurting but in my eyes I feel like your pain is different than ours. That’s your mother and you, Camy, & Freddie, were blessed to be with her everyday growing up. Love you!

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